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2 Time consumer?[x] Time Consume me

I don't even know what to think of this anymore [24 Sep 2006|06:09pm]
[ mood | Ridiculous ]

I think it is funny how I never use this journal anymore. Sometimes I think that if I did it would make me feel better because I am letting go of some feelings instead of bottling it all up. Up until recently, I never held back my feelings. I never kept them to myself. I'm not like that. Ever. When something is bothering me, you will know. As of late though, it just seems like everything is bothering me and I can't help it.

I hate to say it, and in no way am I trying to offend any of my friends, but I really can't rely on any of you guys. Whenever I want to hang out with someone or do something with someone, 78% of the time it doesn't follow through. It seems like the only really good friend that is always there for me would be my six-stringed instrument, upstairs in my room. As gay as that sounds, it pretty much is the truth. Everyone has their ups and downs, and i've certainly had alot of ups in the past. For the past 3 months I have been in a permanent down, and I can't fully explain why. It isn't that I know what it is and am just not telling you, but rather I am CLUELESS to what it is.

Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I never moved to this state. For better or for worse? Who the hell knows?

Time Consume me

=( [10 Nov 2005|05:03pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]


I have so many moods right now all meshed together in one I don't even know where to start. Needless to say most of these moods aren't good. Don't even bother reading this unless you want to read what's on my mind.

Let me start on whats good in my life right now. On Saturday it will be 6 months since I asked out Jillian Martinez, and it's been a very eventful 6 months since that day. So many good things have happened to me now that i'm with her, and I really think she is saving me from alot of the stress that is going on in my life. I love all the time I spend with her and treasure every second of it. I really am the luckiest person to have her as my girlfriend because there certainly isn't anyone else like her. It makes me happy to see her happy, and I love her more than she will ever know. Isn't funny how sometimes you wish you could tell someone how much you actually loved them but words really just don't even describe the feelings you have..

But every once in a while, she gets aggravated with me. I know that it is perfectly normal for this to happen too, don't get me wrong. I just wish that.. she knew how much I love her. If she would be able to understand how much I actually do, then any of the negative thoughts would cease to exist. My love for her is infallible.

The heart is an organ of fire. It overtakes so many thoughts and makes you think feverishly. There are some people who live in a dream world, and there are some who face reality; and then there are those who turn one into the other. My dream world is finally a reality.

The flame never dies because the commitment never ends.

Hm, I think I cheered myself up!

11 Time consumer?[x] Time Consume me

[18 Oct 2005|09:30pm]
[ mood | creative ]

Heres some random pictures of stuff

Me on the orange ave playground

That would be Jill =)

I definitely have a ponderingly stoned look here

Sepia tone babe

9 Time consumer?[x] Time Consume me

[12 Sep 2005|09:56pm]
[ mood | In love ]

Hey all.. havn't updated this piece in a while! Well this isn't really an UPDATE-update, but more or less a little something I wanted to share with the public =)

1 Time consumer?[x] Time Consume me

Jesus christ its been a while [30 May 2005|06:45pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Hey I haven't updated this in a long time. Let's see whats the date... May 30? Damn! I've really found livejournal to be completely overated, as alot of people have drifted over to the whole myspace trend. Myspace is also ridiculously overrated and I think people will just drift away from that too. Well that's what I think about these sites in a nutshell.

Anywho, since my last real update in November... things have changed alot. ALOT. But it's funny because everything has basically changed for the better and I love it. I've met new people, made new friends, lost some old friends, and life goes on. I've really been thinking alot about my life for the past couple of months and how worthless I really felt, but sometimes something, or someone.. can change that completely. I feel that I'm finally on the right path to where I should be going on, and I know that it will be fullfilling and adventrous, and most of all extraordinary wonderful. I can't really explain myself right now, because if I did I think people might take it the wrong way. Knowing what I know, and how I feel with this right path, I know that as things unfold, people will appreciate what is going on.

All I can say is that this is a life commitment that I know that I will never regret and will easily be the best path of direction of my life. I will explain later in another entry.



43 Time consumer?[x] Time Consume me

:-o [20 Nov 2004|08:40pm]
[ mood | What should I do? ]

Today I went to Kim's house and played guitar with Michelle. It was alot of fun. Later we went to Chicken basket and got food. Afterwords we went to Dunkin' Donuts and these two guys were taking pictures of this thing that had a girl with Lukemia on it or something and they were like, "Dude, she looks just like this girl Gina!". We walked home and played more guitar and looked at stuff on the computer... then I went home. Fun fun fun fun! I have pictures so look at em all.. AND COMMENT!


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blah [30 Oct 2004|05:12pm]
[ mood | I dont know ]

Today was ok. I went to the interact club halloween party in which about three kids showed. They came late because we had some technical difficulties with the time. It was a success though, so whatever i'm happy about it.

I don't know what im doing tomarrow for Halloween anymore.

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heyyy [26 Oct 2004|07:58pm]
[ mood | quixotic ]

Guess what.




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.. [17 Oct 2004|01:02am]
[ mood | So incredibly disappointed. ]

Hey everybody

Was suppose to go to nyc tomarrow with Amanda and my mom.

Not happening anymore.

6 Time consumer?[x] Time Consume me

[11 Oct 2004|12:57pm]
[ mood | GAHhh!!! ]


IM DONE TALKING ABOUT POLITICS!!!!!!!!!! im done finished thats it ive had it i seriously hate it more than anything.

It splits so many freakin people right down the middle and they start to get mad at each other and all... look that was definitly not something that I wanted to happen. That last journal entry was just something i thought was really weird because alot alot alot of people dont like bush.

Want to talk about politics? your looking at the wrong person.

31 Time consumer?[x] Time Consume me

[10 Oct 2004|02:33pm]
[ mood | blank ]

This is gonna get some people angry....

But this is not photoshop or anything I swear these are real results as of 4 days ago exactly:

Don't kill me im just the messanger.

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Hey... tomarrow is 3 months [25 Sep 2004|02:53pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Im grounded. My dad took away my guitars. I can't watch TV or anything. To top it all off, my board just snapped about 6 minutes ago.

It's crazy how life can have its ups and downs.

ps. tomarrow is 3 months! =)

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Amanda is amazing [11 Sep 2004|10:29pm]
[ mood | annoyed that im not at Foran ]

Today I woke up and went to the walkathon on my bike.

What an epic adventure that was. So let me tell you about it..

I took my bike and rode over to the walkathon at Foran. Halfway there I went to the bell of tacos. I get there get my food and leave... and not two seconds after I take off, I run over a piece of glass on my bike. This was no ordinary piece of glass let me tell ya... it was like a machete or something because my back tire pretty much exploded. Complete and utter anihilation. So I ride my flat bike all the way to Foran which was oh so fun =/

I get there and see tons of people walking around and stuff and im looking around for Amanda. I circled the place a good few times and finally found her. Everyone was there... Darren, Joanna, Kiley, Albert, Megan, Greg, Kathryn, Mike, and a bunch more people, and of course Amanda. I played some extreme football/frisbee with all of them. It was great. Amanda and I walked around alot and watched some people doing karate. Whenever they would kick or punch... they would scream out some sort of breakfast food... it was so funny. So they would punch a board and say "EGGS!!"... then they would kick each other sensesly and be like "BACON!!". I was like wouldn't it be cool if they screamed hashbrowns or something just to know for sure this is a breakfast language? lol good times.

My uncles band played.. they were good.

I walked around the place with Amanda everywhere It was so great being there with her. We walked around and stole pizza and soda and breathmints lol. I love her so much!! I already miss her... I can't wait till im not grounded anymore, we will be together to the extreme lol.

Yeah so back at the walkthon... my dad told me we were leaving early cause really cool, and I had barely enough time to tell everyone bye otherwise i'd have to walk home. He was being an idiot well whatever.

I'm going to sleep night..

Tom <3 Amanda =*

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Shalallalalalala [03 Sep 2004|11:02pm]
[ mood | tired... yet happy ]

Well today was a fun day in school. My last period class is hilarious I love it.

Then at the end of the day of school Amanda and Kathryn meet up with me outside. Amanda was like "HELLS YEA LETS GO SEE THE EXTROSCISITISCIISCIt(sorry no clue how to spell)!!" and im like alright Good idea I sort of wanted to see that ill see you tonight!!!!!!!

So we saw Wicker park.

It sucked thats all you need to know. Kathryn, Kiley, Chelsea, Joanna, Colleen, and Ashley came along too. Josh hartnett is such a doofus and the two girls in the movie were stupid. I would have taken a nap but that definitly would not have flied well with any of them lol. I got to sit with Amanda though so that definitly made my night. I love how much they all talk during movies and how much amanda laughs. I was so freaking cold in that theater It felt like I was skinny dipping in a freezer door.

After the movie we all talked a bit outside. I saw Mike Coloumbe and Sara mayko there too hah that was funny. My dad came and we dropped amanda off her her dads house. Then I came home.. talked to some people... and starting writing this.

Im so tired man getting up for school kills you.

Goodnight =)

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<3333333333333333333333333333333 [27 Aug 2004|10:58pm]
[ mood | in love ]

I had so much fun today. I love being with Amanda... no matter what my week has been like it just seems to all be a billion times better with her. My dad hasnt spoken to me for 5 days. We go into a little argument which sucks. I sort of miss him =(

Anywho, today I biked over to Amandas and we hung out at her house for the day. I got along with everyone of the new faces i saw (The little boys Nick and Nathan).. but this one baby Matthew... god he hated me. He'd cry when he came up to me. well I take it back i held him twice for like 5 minutes each and he was even smiling and we took a picture. Amanda says thats mine and her baby lol

we went to subway... and ate there and I bought Nathan a toy motorcycle. That kid was great. Nicholas not so much, he was sometimes a little bit bratty, but he was a good kid all around. Later on we met up with Amandas dad and we ate at Legends. That was good too... then we went to the sunday house. so much food that day.

Afterwards we went back to amandas moms house and went through alot of her cool stuff in this box she had. She had tons of stickers and band articles (and pictures of some of my friends????? uh?) and lots of cool stuff. She gave me a Lolapolooza sticker too. She also claims that she's known the band Rooney longer than I have.. and we had this stupid argument on who knew them longer. I think she did get a bit defensive a little later on... but you know what, I don't really care who knew the band Rooney longer.. She probably did anyways I was just being a jerk. Sorry.

Later her mom drived me and my bike back to my house, and I really did dread that moment that i stepped out of the vehicle to my house. I didn't want that day to end I had a great time the entire day. And when you spend that time with the most amazing person in the world, who would want it to end, right? ehhhh well I guess I better be going cause that was pretty much my day. 11:11!! woooo time flies when you write about people that words cant even describe how much they mean to you. =)

Comment please...

Night =)

19 Time consumer?[x] Time Consume me

[08 Aug 2004|06:48pm]
Got back from vacation 3 days ago. Havnt slept in a while.

Ill make a real entry with pictures later... too tired right now

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[01 Aug 2004|11:44am]
[ mood | sort of happy sort of not? ]

Well guys... im going on vacation on Monday... Im packing now.

ill be gone for 5 days... so it wont be that big of a deal.

Yesterday I had tons of fun at woodmont day. No no... woodmont day wasnt really that fun... i just got to spend it with Amanda. That made it all MUCH MUCH MUCH better. I miss her already......................................................

So ill have fun at virginia for a while.. who knows maybe ill run into John Kerry!

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Pictures [24 Jul 2004|04:01pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I had alot of fun two days ago with Amanda and Kim.

Pictures are worth a thousand words.

First I came to Kim's house and Amanda and her were outside..
so I let kim take my board and
"ollie" over a sewer, while I watch in awe.

Then we all went to orchard hills and I schooled amanda in Tic Tac toe.

I beat her so bad that she went to cry at the bottom of the slide.
Notice her sad face.

Then I found this metal prod thing and wonder what would happen if I threw it.

Disastrous results occured.

Amanda couldn't beleive that some poor mans trailer exploded.

When the man saw this he was distraught.. so he did this.

Needless to say, I hid.

Then I tried to hide behind a basketball pole later, but she caught me in the act.

Kim and Amanda talked about what they should do with me after that.

So they walked with me on the grass....

And Amanda attacked me!!

But in the end... we all got along =)


65 Time consumer?[x] Time Consume me

... [17 Jul 2004|06:46pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I swear to god the next journal entry I read that is like:

"I hate my life" "I have no friends" "I hate myself" "I wish I was dead" "My life sucks"... etc...

I will end my life. Im sick and tired of it... and frankly your life doesnt suck. You have a roof over your head and you eat 3 meals a day. More than half the world can't even say that. So stop taking things for granted, Jesus christ. Write about something else that I actually give a damn about.

Sure that may have sounded a bit harsh... but its time someone said SOMETHING.


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YOU NEED TO READ ALL OF THIS [04 Jul 2004|09:13pm]
[ mood | Amazed ]

Please read all of the following it was incredible!!

So I decide to go see Spider-man 2 with my family. Everything is normal we are watching the movie... then all of a sudden my Bladder gives a sharp karate kick up my spine and sends a brain wave to my head saying "YO, DUMBASS! ITS TIME TO TAKE A PISS". So I get up... and walk into the bathroom, and drain the main vein teehee... When I hear an abnorally dull ::THUD::

What could that be, I wondered? So I zipped up, turned around, and saw an old man, aproximately 80 years or older im guessing, lying on the ground clutching himself on his abdomen and bleeding uncontrollbly next to his cane.

Thoughts began to race in my mind. What do I do?

Without thinking... I brought him over to the side of the wall and propped him up to stop pressure to his head. When I said he was bleeding uncontrollably... I meant it. Blood was pouring from his nose, ears, eyes, and even his arms and neck! So I sat him up, ran over to the sink and got a bunch of paper towels. I ran back to the still bleeding old man and told him to hold on while I get some help.

I ran as fast as I could, adrenaline pumping through every inch of my body, and in the blink of an Eye i was at the ticket booth counter.. yelling at the 3 guys behind it to call an ambulance, police, anybody! I brought them over to the mens room. The old man was still holding his chest and wheezing. One of the guys ran and said he'd call an ambulance, and the other 2 waited with me trying to help the guy. The third guy came back and said he called the police and they are sending an ambulance... so I backed up and asked if they guys had it in control. They said yes, so I walked back into the theater, legs shaking from adrenaline rush. I told my dad and my uncle when we got out of the movie (Which I missed like half of but who cares?).

One of the guys behind the counter when we left talked to me and said that the man had something with his heart like a heart attack (which would explain why he was clutching his chest). I asked him why the man was bleeding so much, but he couldnt answer. At the end of the conversation between the ticket guy, he told me that if I werent there at that exact time, chances are the man would have died from the heart attack or loss of blood.


Oh yeah, and my mom said im not getting my GNX 4 guitar unit because she is SOOO cool.

please comment I really want to know what you guys think

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